Apparently my dad is dating another woman. Geez, is that a punch in the gut for my mum. Personally I think good on him. He and mum have both been unhappy for years, and both knew the relationship wouldn't last. According to mum they've been "emotionally separated" since we moved here (5 years ago).

Mum is really angry now. Perhaps I'm just judgmental and insensitive, but i don't understand what her problem is. She always bitches and complains about dad and how much she's pissed off with him. Sometimes she speaks of him as though he's her worst enemy (unfortunately, I'm the one who must hear this shit). This is what i reckon: mum's pride is hurt. She walked out on dad, and this gave her a sense of satisfaction or perhaps superiority?? Anyway, but now dad has moved on and is seeing someone else. And mum hasn't met anyone since. She told me this morning she didn't give a shit, and she always calls dad a bastard. But she asked him about it, 30mins ago, and he said it was true. And next thing she's back here and almost screaming at me about how much of a bastard he is. And when I said "I don't get why your pissed off. You said you were fine with it earlier" she screamed at me about manners and about he should have moved out instead ... yak, yak, yak. Perhaps she is seriously hurt by this ... but ... *groan* i hate this shit ...

Hmmm ... I don't understand people sometimes. I wish I did. But i don't. Mum is odd at times. But, what annoys me above all else is that she wishes to bitch about dad to me. I don't mind her bitching about him occasionally, but she goes on and on until suddenly she's insulting him. And, although i don't love my dad (we don't talk, and he doesn't care to know about me, even when i was little), he's still my dad, and I don't want to hear every darkest bit of crap about him. But when i tell mum this, she gets pissed off, that suddenly i don't want to join in with her bitching session. And she's like "well next time you're having troubles with ... whoever you have troubles with, don't bother talking to me about it". I think she forgets that she's been told by everyone (counsellors, mediators, friends, etc) that you're not supposed to drag your kids into the personal matters. *sigh* Maybe I should be more supportive? I hate having a chaotic family life.

I'm gonna continue writing my story now. Cya